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Axioms for Men in Today’s New World

By Kendra Holliday | January 27, 2018

This is a guest post by an older man who was raised traditional and conservative in a small town, but learned of the sex-positive community and discovered a different way of seeing things…

Aren’t gentlemen nice?

The “Me Too” era has exposed the callous acts of a privileged and entitled, male-dominated society in their suppression of women’s rights, equality, and, let’s face it, an attitude that women exist merely to SERVE men as those men see fit.

This does not indict ALL men, but there are vast number of men in our society that just do not GET IT.

Responsible men of this world should be the first to be in line to call it out as being WRONG.

At the same time, the “Me Too” movement is encouraging women to stand up, speak out, and be heard and not let the dominant and controlling men of this world get to operate in the hushed, wink and a nod, environment protected by each other simply because they exert economic and career power over women be it in the household, business, or academic settings; Nor let the powerful silence women by Non-Disclosure Settlements.

Axioms of Man —

Overlooking the valley at sunset

While starting with Women, I realize how universal these axioms are to all other life. I hold women in a special and sacred place in my heart.

I realize that I have no inherent entitlement to the attention of a woman, man or other human or even animal or plant beings on this planet.

Women do not exist to serve men. They are unique, sacred beings in their own right, with their own rights.

Marriage does not bind a woman to blindly obey her husband nor create his ownership of her. That is a myth perpetrated by patriarchs including religious zealots.

Sacred female energy is a gift, as is sacred male energy, to be lovingly shared without expectation of a return. When we eliminate expectations, the rest takes care of itself in ways you would not even have thought possible.

Giving and offering gifts free from expectations is a freedom of expression in love.

Love to our fellow brothers and sisters is why we exist as a human race and is what sets us apart as humans. Anything less than showing love means we are being less of a human.

Showing love to another being is a combination of showing respect, honor, deference, empathy, care, compassion, passion, intimacy in thought, deed, and words, understanding, and self-control of less than loving attitudes, thoughts and actions. Self-control often needs to be consciously practiced with intention.

We humans are intricately complex beings capable of interpreting or reinterpreting our basis of existence in how we identify ourselves within the larger context of our world. Showing love means being accepting, supportive, and encouraging to others who may be considering or who have concluded that natural gender assignment my not be correct for themselves and chose to live differently than we might expect.

Love is all powerful. As humans we have the ability to love and show our love to many beings and in the energy of the Universe, this love is felt whether we consciously realize it or not. Oft the energy of love is returned to us as is the reverse when we do not show love. Love opens up many new avenues of energy which provides the opportunity for unlimited fulfillment both in this world and the world of energy beyond.

Showing unconditional, non-judgmental, acceptance, and honest love to all beings of our world is our mission to make our world a better place.

3 Things Men Should Leave in 2017

By Kendra Holliday | January 13, 2018

My latest unsolicited cock shot experience was one of the things that inspired my dear brother from another mother, David Wraith, to shoot this excellent video:

Listen to him explain why it is a bad idea to:

    1. Send unsolicited cock shots
    2. Catcall
    3. Mansplain

David is a local sex educator and one of the co-founders of Sex Positive St Louis, a not-for-profit organization we founded in 2010 in order to create safe spaces for people to explore their sexuality in a positive, constructive, shame-free zone. There should be an org like this in EVERY city!

We usually host about four events a month, and I have a few in the queue to create. Stay tuned for talks on asexuality, dating, and polyamory! Check our calendar for updates.

How I REALLY Feel About Unsolicited Cock Shots

By Kendra Holliday | January 9, 2018

Here we go again. I thought all my friends, lovers and clients knew, but since I just got ANOTHER ONE… 😫

I do NOT like receiving unsolicited cock shots.

I don’t care if I’m a sex worker.

I don’t care if you got carried away.

I don’t care if I’ve played with your cock.

I don’t care if I’ve had it in my mouth.

I don’t care if you are someone I’ve been fucking with for years, or are brand new and exciting.

I don’t care if you are Barack Obama. (Note: My point is, he would NEVER do that. Anthony Weiner, however, WOULD.)

If you send me a cock shot, it’s like a slap in the face, an instant turn off, and an online assault, and I will fine you $50 and demand an apology if you ever want to interact with me again.

It’s all about comfort and context, people.

Wait, no…MEN.

I challenge you to comment if you’ve never sent a cock shot, or wish to publicly apologize for sending a cock shot. Or feel completely justified in sending a cock shot.

So, without further ado…

Wanna know the quickest way NOT to get under my skirt?

Think dealbreaker, hard limit, red flag, turn OFF.

OK, besides wearing ugly footwear or torturing small mammals.

Send me an unsolicited cock shot.

Is this what men imagine their cock shot looks like?

My dick is a GOD!

or this?

My dick is seriously BAD ASS.

or this?

My penis is all-powerful!

Guys. Here is what it really looks like:

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Arousal: The Secret Logic of Sexual Fantasies

By Kendra Holliday | December 29, 2017

Arousal: The Secret Logic of Sexual Fantasies, by Dr. Michael J. Bader

I’ve had the book Arousal: The Secret Logic of Sexual Fantasies on my shelf for a long time. It tempted me with its mysterious title and sexy cover (I LOVE oysters, and I LOVE my pearl, if you know what I mean).

Well, I finally dusted it off and read it, and it blew my mind, and I’ve been recommending it to people left and right ever since.

Here’s an intro concept from it that should provoke your thoughts:

“There’s a joke that says that when two people have sex, there are six people in bed: the two lovers and the parents of each of them.”

Is that creepy, true, or both? I hope you’re imagining group sex with your parents right now.

A sampling of the MANY interesting points brought up in this book:

– “Sexual excitement requires that we momentarily become selfish. There needs to be a tension between selfishness and caring, between using and pleasing your partner.”

Do you know what this means? Sometimes, when it comes to sex, you need to be ruthless. You need to let go and stop worrying so much about every little move and just focus on the pleasure. YOUR pleasure.

– The difference between guilt and shame: “Guilt involves beliefs that we are hurting others, while shame involves beliefs that we’re exposed and unworthy in the eyes of others.”

– “When people are aggressive or cruel in their sexual daydreams or practices, it is not because they are primarily sadistic but because they are trying to solve a problem.”

– Have you ever known a woman who is really bitchy toward her male partner? He’s such a nice guy, he tries so hard to cater to her wants and needs, yet she treats him like an annoying puppy? This book explains the reason behind that lopsided dynamic.

– Survivor guilt and unconscious parental jealousy is behind a lot of the issues we face with our parents. Have you ever wondered why someone would start drinking heavily when they became successful in their field? Or why some parents sabotage their kids and excessively criticize instead of support them in their endeavors? This book goes into the details behind those perplexing behaviors, and much more.

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Eclipse Symbolism

By Kendra Holliday | August 18, 2017

I see symbolism in EVERYTHING.

I go through life trying my best to PAY ATTENTION. Adding layers to daily life makes things so much more beautiful, meaningful, and intriguing.

Example 1: Noticing tree branches swaying in the breeze like whispers. What are they saying?

Example 2: Coming home to find a murder of crows in my front yard after buying the ingredients for a dessert I’m making for a Halloween party that’s being held in July.

Example 3: Finding a slug on my foot after walking barefoot in the grass at midnight.

So it’s exciting for me to see an entire country FREAK THE FUCK OUT about the total solar eclipse happening right in my neighborhood.

That means they get it, right??

They’re not AFRAID of it – they are in AWE of it.

The image of the moon cloaking the sun

Total solar eclipse OMG. By Javichu el jefe – Own work, CC BY-SA 3.0, https://commons.wikimedia.org/w/index.php?curid=2890522

reminds me of so many other images, including this one of my eyeball taken during LASIK surgery

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Game of Thrones

By Kendra Holliday | July 16, 2017

Ruthless

Ruthless Mottherfucker

I wrote this post in 2013!!!

I didn’t mean to, but I got obsessed with Game of Thrones.

I try to avoid television series – they’re too much of a commitment. I hardly ever have time to sit around and watch TV – in fact, I don’t even have a TV, but I do have a laptop and a partner who likes his big TV. Also, it’s his fault I became a GoT freak – he turned me onto the show.

Here are the series I’ve tried:

1. Sex and the City – I watched all of them, and am embarrassed to admit it

2. Six Feet Under – didn’t make it to the end, bailed when the gay guy got robbed

3. Deadwood – I loved it

4. Dexter – bailed by the 3rd season or so

5. True Blood – bailed after 20 minutes, too violent

I can’t stand blood and guts, so I avoided GoT, but finally my partner convinced me to give it a try. “There are some really hot scenes,” he cajoled.

Yay for whores and brothels and group sex!

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No Shave May!

By Kendra Holliday | June 7, 2017

I did this video announcing my new project: No Shave May!

I already have a head start with it, see? My pubes are trying to bust their way out of my lace panties!

My pubic hair

I can’t get any of my lace panties to hold up these days. I’ve taken to hand washing and trying not to be too sexy for them.

I find the difference between guys who are into shaved heads and the guys who are into natural women fascinating. As a group, the shaved head guys came off as more entitled and disconnected, as if they owned every bald female head. Even though they claimed a woman with a shaved head was a sign of powerful confidence, they seemed to secretly get off on the humiliation factor.

The hairy armpit guys are more respectful and kind. I guess they are hippies after my own heart! These guys see hairy underarms as a badge of sensuality and supreme confidence.

I wonder how big my bush will get. I can’t remember the last time it was fully grown out. I’ll keep you posted on how my hair growth progresses!

Um, Patriarchy? We Have a Problem

By Kendra Holliday | April 26, 2017

Heads up:

We are living in a society that’s being run by immature men.

We are regressing as a country.

We need to cultivate MATURE masculinity.

Zeus. God. Warrior. King.

Patriarchy is the fear of the feminine AND the mature masculine.

Feminism promotes the concept that women are equal to men, that women should not be held to a different (sub)standard. Most people think in terms of pay and ability, but feminism also encompasses human sexuality. See this article about how women want sex as much as men do, and how that dynamic flipped in our culture.

No wonder I have so many men coming to me begging for submissive experiences with a strong woman! Shit is SO out of whack, they need to go out of their way to carve out safe spaces for surrender and the worship of the sacred feminine.

This article by Doctor Nerdlove also addresses the problem of desire and gender disparity in our society and how it hurts ALL OF US. (He has more than 1000 articles on dating and relationships, by the way!)

Judy Singer, an Australian sociologist, was at a workshop that proposed the following exercise: Come up with a better set of Ten Commandments than God.

Her first one was, “Honor diversity.”

What would yours be?

I strongly recommend you read this essay on nudity and society if you ever feel powerless or overwhelmed at the site of a scantily clad woman.

An excerpt:

After encountering an attractive woman who greeted us at the door wearing little more than a half-open robe, I waited until we were well down the road before letting loose a tirade of anger and frustration. I told my companion that it really bothered me seeing so many women in various states of undress. It was hard to focus and I felt weak and powerless around them. How were we to be strong and stay faithful? I had prayed and fasted about it constantly, and felt little strength in return. And I began to despise many of the women I encountered for “making” me feel that way. I then turned my frustration on him, wondering how he could possibly be so calm and seemingly indifferent to it all. Was he just pretending? Maybe he was on the edge of sanity, barely holding it together, putting up a brave though false front.

It’s cultural, and it’s harmful.

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Flashbacks and Metaphors

By Kendra Holliday | January 30, 2017

A couple weeks ago, I went to my first therapy appointment wearing a long amethyst gown, pearl crown, white opera length gloves – regal and ridiculous as fuck. My new therapist was chic in all black. She pointed out that all the other therapists in the office were wearing black – mourning attire, in protest to the hostile political climate.

As a peace loving bonobo, I can’t stand having a violent chimpanzee in a position of world power representing my interests.

I’m going to therapy to deal with my menopausal mourning – this nation, my aging parents, dear friends dying.

A combination of the nation’s turmoil and divisiveness, along with listening to this podcast (at the 17:40 mark – btw the rest of the podcast is an excellent interview with actor and comedian Romany Malco) triggered a traumatic memory for me.

The part in the podcast that triggered me was a letter submitted from a listener who was sexually assaulted by a man. He abused his position of power and coerced her, cut her clothes off and sexually assaulted her.

I don’t know if any of you have experienced something like I have – being in your own home, inviting someone in you consider to be a friend, and then he pins you down on your bed, cuts off your pretty bright pink bra with a knife, and then flips you over and carves his initials into your back. You’re helpless, and he’s much stronger. This new government administration feels like that.

His initials, by the way, were his nickname:

T1

He’s an active member of the local BDSM scene. He’ll probably be at Naughti Gras this year.

The assault happened years ago. I remember crying with anger as I defiantly sewed my bra back together – I liked it and wanted to salvage it. I still have it.

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PERV

By Kendra Holliday | January 16, 2017

I’m a proud pervert!

Here is proof, as featured in The Riverfront Times.

Or, just look at this pic 🙂

My new friends!

My new friends!

Here’s one of my favorite perverts:

John Waters is such a pervert!

John Waters is such a pervert!

So what is a pervert, anyway? Centuries ago, the word meant “atheist”, or “turning away from what is right.”

PERV, by Jesse Bering

PERV, by Jesse Bering

I’m an atheist, so that still fits. And I don’t see why sexual creativity and expression is wrong, so I’m glad to reclaim the word as being twisted or kinky.

There’s a great book out that covers a wide range of perversions. It’s called PERV: The Sexual Deviant in All of Us, by Jesse Bering. (Fun fact: Jesse Bering used to teach at a university in Arkansas. My ex took his position when he moved on to greener pastures.)

I’m used to academics writing about sex in theory, and removing themselves from the messy details. So I was really impressed with Jesse’s approach – he fesses up to some of his own embarrassing sexual history! Very raw and honest.

For instance, one time he masturbated to an empty Diet Coke can a guy he had a crush on drank from. He also masturbated to a picture of a naked caveman in a science book. His confessions reminded me of some of my embarrassing details – I used to have a crush on Darth Vader, and when I was a kid, I practiced making out with a Spiderman doll.

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What is the Secret to an Abundant Sex Life?

By Kendra Holliday | January 9, 2017

Dear Kendra,

In my experience, sex partners are few and far between. When I do find a partner, relationship drama soon kicks in, and that tarnishes the fun in having sex. I’ve always wanted more sex with more women without all the hassle – a life of sexual freedom and openness, and the joy that comes with it. But alas, it always eludes me.

I appreciate your blog and lifestyle, and I’d like to live a sex life similar to yours. I want to enjoy a sex life with an abundance of attractive women, with a consenting partner, in a way that good partners come towards me without all the games.

I’ve always felt that the key to living the life you want is your mentality or perspective about it. And so my question to you is, what is the mindset of one who lives this sort of life, or the spiritual perspective? What kinds of thoughts prohibit one from living the life? What is the secret to living an abundant sex life?

On Holliday!

My answer:

There is one main thing keeping people from celebrating their sexuality in a free and fun manner – FEAR.

If there’s one thing I’ve learned from traveling to other countries, it’s that USA is a very fearful country. We are rife with anxiety and depression, due to all the limitations we impose upon ourselves. And yet, we tout ourselves as a free country.

HA. Very funny. Nice try.

I highly recommend you read The Bonobo Way by Dr Susan Block.

And Decoding Your Kink by Galen Fous MTP.

And, it looks like some of my other book recommendations have helped people! See this heartening note from a reader:

“You and I could probably agree on very little…I’m a Conservative Christian male, in a monogamous relationship with my wife, and I was a virgin until I was married.

And yet, my wife and I have had intimacy issues for many many years. I stumbled onto your site and, at after seeing your Top Sex-Positive Recommendations post, started reading Robert Glover’s book ‘No More Mr. Nice Guy!’. I thought I was going to see my picture in the pages of that book. Almost everything in that book described me perfectly.

Then, also at your suggestion, I started reading ‘Open Her’ by Karen Brody. Not finished with this yet, but again I’m seeing eye-opening revelations.

My relationship with my wife is improving, but I have miles to go before I truly overcome my ‘Nice Guy Syndrome’. I just wanted to thank you for listing these reading materials on your site. You don’t make $ from this, but I can tell that you are truly interested in helping people resolve whatever sexual-relational problems they may have.”

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What Makes a Person Sexy? The Secret Recipe

By Kendra Holliday | December 31, 2016

So….

What makes a person sexy?

Think about it.

Before you read on, take a moment to really think about it. What thoughts immediately come to mind?

WHO comes to mind – you? your partner? someone you know in real life? celebrities?

What do they look like? How do they behave?

Most people will reply automatically with:

CONFIDENCE

But of course!

Take a look at yourself.

However, it’s more than that. I know a gorgeous stripper who suffers from low self-esteem, and she is sexy.

You can be insecure and sexy.

You can be stupid and sexy.

You can be fat and sexy.

You can be old and sexy.

You can be poor and sexy.

You can be immature and sexy.

When we are attracted to someone else, it’s either because they remind us of ourselves, or they are a contrast to ourselves.

Either way, it is a reflection.

Deep, huh? Let’s unpack that.

Do you possess more male energy, or female energy?

Are you in touch with your sexuality? Is your libido in check?

Female energy is yin, the moon, water, cool.

Male energy is yang, the sun, fire, hot.

I’ve found that what makes a man sexy is confidence and maturity.

For women, it’s confidence and playfulness.

And for everyone, the secret ingredient to sexiness is…………

Drumroll…………

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Twelve Days of Dickmas

By Kendra Holliday | December 23, 2016

You know what gives a sex worker a serious case of frosty burnout? An onslaught of timewasters and disrespectful horny men.

It’s winter now, and I’ve been dealing with a bone chilling, relentless dick blizzard.

It’s enough to make my pussy FRIGID.

Baby, it’s cold outside. Don’t be all rapey, virtual, or otherwise.

I feel like I’m doing the heavy lifting. Other women are opting out – they’re had enough and are done with dick – which makes more men cluster up, desperate and eager, their testosterone levels sloshing out and flinging on anyone they can access.

If you want to warm a woman up, make her feel comfortable and respected.

If you want to wear a woman out, be pushy and insensitive.

Believe me, I LOVE sex and men and doing what I do, but when it comes to the creepers, it goes like this:

On the twelfth day of Christmas

my horny fans sent to me:

12 Dicks Drumming

Don't be this boner.

Don’t be this boner.

Eleven Pricks Piping

IN YOUR FACE

IN YOUR FACE

Gather around, manchildren!

Ten Dicks a Leaping

Nine Dongs Dancing

Eight Dicks a Milking

Seven Dicks a Swimming

Six Cocks a Laying

Five Golden DIIIIIIICKS

Four Calling Dicks

Three French Dicks

Two Turtle Dicks

and a Penis in a Pear Tree.

Now repeat twelve times.

See? Exhausted.

Merry Dickmas, Everyone!

Luckily, I get a boner break – I’ll be on vacation Dec 26-Jan 10. First Hogwarts in Orlando with my daughter, and then Iceland with my partner! I’m excited to see magical landscapes and the Northern Lights!

And then I will return, refreshed and ready to rendezvous again! See you next year!

Come Out, Come Out, Wherever You Are

By Kendra Holliday | November 25, 2016

The other day, my friend told me he wanted to come out, but he was afraid.

He’s a polyamorous bisexual swinger, and was worried about judgement.

So, I made this video offering tips on coming out.

He watched it and said, “My only hesitation around coming out is the potential adverse impact on our 10 yr old daughter. If it wasn’t for that, I would have done it already. I feel like we need to come out to her first. I don’t want her to hear it from anyone but us.”

I replied, “It’s respectful to start with loved ones first, you’re so right.”

And then, I made this video.

Well, guess what!

He took the plunge, and talked to his daughter. And you know what? It went fine!

He reported, “I did it! I talked to our daughter! We are out to her! It was very uneventful. I had an opening and I took it. She was very open and understanding and said ‘Do whatever you want as long as you stay married.’ Once she heard we both knew about each other’s relationships and our marriage was solid, it was all good. It felt very natural and healthy.”

By no means am I taking full credit for pushing him in the right direction, but I did provide gentle encouragement and influence.

And that feels AWESOME!

OH and PS: After my daughter dug through my box of sex toys and learned what they were, I went ahead and proudly displayed them in my bedroom! It’s a shame to hide functional works of art, don’t you agree?

TOYS!! GLORY!!

TOYS!! GLORY!!

And, PS2: My daughter knows I have sex with most of my friends, so when she finds out I haven’t had sex with one of my friends, she is SURPRISED! LOL!

Such as, David Wraith. We have never had sex! But we’ve certainly been emotionally intimate. 😉

My brother from another mother. Photo by Ariana Bauer

My brother from another mother. Photo by Ariana Bauer

Much love and encouragement to you and your loved ones!

 

 

Black Lives Matter

By Kendra Holliday | September 21, 2016

David Wraith and me

David Wraith and me

BLACK LIVES MATTER.

#BlackLivesMatter

I am serious.

We love to fetishize and FEAR black men, women, and transgender people.

Escorts, bulls, trannys, hookers, hos, bitches, pimps, thugs, drug dealers, robbers, rapists… we subconsciously and consciously wallow in projection…. painting our dark dreams… casting shadows. So much guilt and shame surrounding racism.

And often guilt and shame and forbidden thoughts give us that taboo thrill we need to get off.

We need to channel that powerful energy to something positive.

SEX not DEATH.

PLEASURE not PAIN.

Our country is deep in the throes of non-consensual power exchange. Consensual power exchange is the core of BDSM, which can be a healthy outlet for acting out fears and healing. Non-consensual power exchange is ASSAULT and ABUSE, which can be deadly.

Please do your part to end needless suffering.

I really don’t know how to reconcile all this grief and death and turmoil.

2016 has been a real test of strength.

I know I’m accomplishing great things with my work, passion and Sex Positive St Louis. I know I am a great parent teaching my daughter to be compassionate; she is an empath by nature.

I know this in my heart.

But it’s still hard.

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