By Kendra Holliday | April 20, 2012 at 12:51 pm
I feel like I never get to see my partner anymore!
We both have so many important obligations, it’s hard to find time for ourselves, so we have to sneak in quickies and have half-ass phone calls. And we only live 15 minutes away from each other! This is bullshit!
SO, we were smart and planned ahead for a weekend getaway. We’re going back to Dancing Rabbit Ecovillage!
The last time we went was two years ago, right after I came out in the Riverfront Times. Holy shit that was a stressful month!
Here is what I wrote in Oct, 2010:
Confession: my sex life has suffered lately. Usually I enjoy several orgasms a day and celebrate sex with my partner as often as I see him, but Coming Out has proven to be a most stressful affair.
I liken it to giving birth to a premature baby – the first few weeks are scary, you don’t know what’s going on, and you desperately hope that it will all be ok and your baby will grow up to be strong and healthy.
Maybe it’s over the top to compare the past couple weeks to a life-or-death situation, but there have been some pretty intense turn of events the past few days. I can’t speak about them just yet. I’ve tried my best to keep the tone of this website positive and I intend to keep moving forward. There have been many wonderful developments, as well! So maybe I should compare it to a wedding – I merged TBK and Kendra – my whore and mother sides.
I do not regret Coming Out.
I knew it would get worse before if gets better. Change can be painful sometimes, especially with so many people involved. Being the focus of so many intense emotions – fear, fury, joy, shock, hope, relief – has been surreal.
I’m planning on recording a podcast with my friends at Life on the Swingset around Dec. 11, which marks a month after my Coming Out. I’ll be sharing intimate, behind-the-scenes details of the fallout. The RFT article sent shock waves through the community, that’s for sure. It’s been a mindfuck for a lot of people.
My partner has been my boulder throughout all this. Today we’re leaving for a weekend getaway to Dancing Rabbit ecovillage, a sustainable community located in rural Missouri. We’ll be staying at the Milkweed Mercantile Bed & Breakfast.
It will be good to get away and reconnect.
Next week I will be mentally and physically recharged, and ready to face the next wave of changes. Life is interesting, and full of surprises!
Your continued support is appreciated. I believe in myself, and I believe it will get better.
HEY. It totally did get better! 2010 was intense. 2011 SUCKED. 2012 has been amazing so far!