By Kendra Holliday | September 19, 2013 at 7:21 am
I’m excited to announce I will be offline this Fri-Sun so I can attend the Omega Women and Power Retreat in a peaceful village in New York
(TWO HOURS FROM NEW YORK CITY I’VE NEVER BEEN ARRGGGGH SOO CLOSE)
Anyway, back to the peaceful village… The conference is starring Brene Brown and a host of other successful female leaders.
- Explore the power of authenticity with Elizabeth Lesser
- Build our retreat community with weaver Carla Goldstein
- Practice meditation to cultivate a strong backbone and an open heart with Joan Halifax Roshi
- Dare to be vulnerable and transform the way we parent, work, and lead with Brené Brown
- Gain insight about developing the strength to use power in new ways with Sarah Peter
- Learn about what’s happening for women at the economic policy level and its connection to our everyday lives with Heidi Hartmann
- Discover how dignifying caregiving strengthens our society with Ai-jen Poo
- Experience the value of loving our whole selves through movement and meditation with Chung Hyun Kyung
OK, so do you think it will be amazing, or corny? I can’t tell! They offer optional chanting, drumming, dancing workshops (( shudder )). I’ve never done anything like this before. I’m packing light – no laptop, no make up, no pretty clothes. Just me and a couple good books.
I took a leap when I signed up a few months ago, and it’s turning out to be good timing. I REALLY need a moment to get my bearings and figure out my path. I’m definitely on the ball when it comes to authenticity and vulnerability, but I really need to strengthen my leadership skills and learn how to better balance and prioritize and MAKE AMAZING SHIT HAPPEN. Shit that benefits me, my loved ones, and the community.
I want to soak up lots of awesome female energy! I want to experience new things and meet new people!
Assessing my current situation,
The volunteer group I helped Co-Found, SEX+STL, is doing well.
My consultation business is going strong – my unique services are in demand.
I’m gearing up to launch an adult lifestyle club – I had a great preliminary meeting with my advisory board.
My daughter makes me proud on a daily basis. What’s more, she is proud of me!
My relationships are healthy and happy.
I’ve got my mind set on some important goals.
I want to increase my income so I can continue to take good care of my daughter. I need a new furnace. I want a sweet ride.
I don’t forget that I’ve had to fight hard to get to where I am now.
I was fired for being open about my sexuality.
And I was sued for full custody of my daughter for being open about my sexuality.
I shaved my head as a performance art fundraiser for my legal defense fund.
I faced one of my greatest fears – public speaking – in front of 700 people at ideaCity, in a different country, with a shaved head, not wearing a bra, talking about being a mother who is out about her sexuality.
And I did not win over the crowd.
I did not kick ass. I was nervous as fuck. I went over time. The mostly conservative audience did not approve of my topic. Half of them were disgusted and gave me the thumbs down, and half of them felt sorry for me. The host didn’t even want to stand next to me. He did not flirt with me like he did with all the other pretty women who were there. I think I freaked him out.
I have never watched this talk, because I am too ashamed of it.
I still haven’t conquered my fear of public speaking.
But I tried.
And I’m trying this.
I hope I come back feeling energized and inspired.
I need to push my life to the next level.