Saturday Morning CBT

By Kendra Holliday | January 28, 2013



CBT: Cock n ball torture.

I love torturing men’s genitals – it’s like getting paid to throw rocks at windows.

I work with a lot of different people on their very different sexual interests, hangups, and goals.

The other day I got this inquiry from a man who lives on the East coast. Let’s call him David R.:

“I need someone to help me work through some of my fantasies. I’ve been divorced for one year and have constant daydreams about being subordinate and punished.”

Sounded like a fun challenge to me!

I had an initial consultation with David R. I asked him if he could pinpoint the origins of his intense fantasies. He explained:

“When I was 11, I read a pornographic story in Penthouse Letters about a mother who punished her son by tying up his testicles and hitting them repeatedly. Since that time, I have been fascinated and excited about even the thought of being humiliated or punished sexually.”

This sort of scenario is very common, but under different guises. I wonder how the fetish triggering happens -I mean, he read 20 different fantasies in that porno mag at a young and impressionable age – why did that particular one reach out and kick him in the nuts? (The book Arousal lends some great insight on this topic.)

After learning more about where he was coming from and what he was seeking, I came up with a treatment plan. The first fantasy he wanted to explore was as follows:

My wife has framed me as a criminal, and I have been caught and found guilty (I AM INNOCENT! 🙂

But who cares about that!  You are her psychiatrist friend, and through a bribe my ex has gotten you into a position to abuse me.

The main goals for you are to:
Torture me and video tape it for my wife’s amusement, and yours
Keep me subjugated for an arbitrary time period
Modify my genitals to suit your purposes
Turn me into a semen-milker, collecting as much semen as possible, and punishing me when I fall short.

Warning: If you click “More”, you will see some slightly disturbing cock shots.

We set up our first Saturday morning session, in which I posed as a cruel femme Domme psychiatrist, and he was my hapless patient.

Bur first, he drafted a letter, which I edited to suit my purposes:

Dear Mr. R:

By the order of Harrisberg County Court (Case 14937b) you have been ordered to attend counseling/therapy provided by Doctor Kendra Holliday and her clinic.  Note that you are currently on probation pending completion of a successful outcome of your therapy with Doctor Holliday. If you fail this therapy, you are required to appear in front of this court for final sentencing in this case.  Be aware: your therapy is court ordered, and must continue for at least 6 months, with extensions as deemed required by Doctor Holliday to a maximum period of 5 years. If you fail this rehabilitative therapy, the mandatory sentence is at minimum 25 years.  The maximum possible sentence is 35 years.

Please find the enclosed envelope with sealed instructions from Doctor Holliday.


Daniella Frost
District Attorney



Hello Mr. Rogers:

You are to follow these instructions to the letter.  Your first session is Saturday 11 AM EST.  Remember that this is a preliminary session, and requirements will be increased as we progress in your rehabilitation.

You are to text me once each day to confirm you have completed your daily regimen. You are to address me as Doctor at all times.

  • Wednesday January 23, 2013
    • Do not orgasm for 3 days before the session, starting at 8am EST.
    • Eat 2 ounces of pistachios
    • Eat 3 stalks of celery
    • Vitamin C and Zinc supplements
    • While nude, stand and bend at waist to touch your toes. Spread legs as wide as need be. Hold for 60 seconds.
  • Thursday January 24, 2013
    • Continue orgasm restriction
    • Eat 3.5 ounces of pistachios
    • Eat 5 stalks of celery
    • Vitamin C and Zinc supplements
    • While in shower, soap penis until erect, then stop
  • Friday January 25, 2013
    • Continue orgasm restriction
    • Eat 3.5 ounces of pistachios
    • Eat 10 stalks of celery
    • Vitamin C and Zinc supplements
    • Shave genital area until smooth and clear
    • 25 jumping jacks while nude
  • Saturday January 26, 2013
    • Continue orgasm restriction
    • No peeing standing up on this day – only pee sitting down
    • Eat 3.5 ounces of pistachios
    • Eat 5 stalks of celery
    • Vitamin C and Zinc supplements
    • Take single dose Cialis 5mg at 8:00 AM exactly
  • Show up at 11:00 AM exactly, I want you clothed at the beginning of the session.
  • Remember this is an introductory session, so be prepared for the following activities
    • Initial interview
    • Measurement of genitals
      • Without stress
      • Under stress
    • Measurement of semen production
    • Fitting for felon control device
  • From this examination I expect to make the following initial requirements upon you for rehabilitation:
    • Required enhancement to penis size, via surgery
      • Add 5-10 centimeters length (2-4 inches)
      • Add 5-10 centimeters circumference
    • Required enhancement to testicle volume
      • 40%-80%
      • Determine CC’s injection level weekly dosage
    • Required delivery of semen, using Saturday’s production as a basis
      • Assume you can ejaculate twice per day at volume
      • Times 13 days until next session
    • Calibrate felon control device to optimal setting.

As you can see, we have a busy first session. Come prepared.

Doctor Holliday


Fucking awesome, right?! I LOVE being partnered with a Dominant man to whom I am submissive, but then getting to play with these subby bitches. It’s like the best of both worlds!

All week he sent me updates, reporting measurements, compliance, and photos of his treatment regimen:

Celery and pistachios are supposed to be good for male sexual health

Celery and pistachios are supposed to be good for male sexual health

Dietary supplements

Pill popping for penis power

Pill popping for penis power

Power up!

Day after day, he ate this shit

Day after day, he ate this shit

So after several days of prep, we met for our Skype conference, and I made him strip down like this:

At the beginning of the session

At the beginning of the session

Pathetic, no?

I wanted to agitate that cock that had been denied orgasm for days, so I ordered him to take his temperature via urethra:



Next, we fooled around with some string, cock ring, rubber band, penis pump, and finally, a dog shock collar:

Z A P !

Z A P !

But dammit! The shock collar was not charged, so we had to set it aside and punish his testicles in other ways.

First, I made him slap his balls on a level 3 five times. I watched that bitch slap session and wasn’t satisfied. So then I made him punch his nuts ten times on a level 5, but that still wasn’t sufficient. Finally, I ordered him to karate chop his family jewels 15 times on a level 10. He had to set them on a flat surface, and then he wailed on them per Doctor’s orders. Every time he severely chopped at them with the flat of his hand and gasped,, I gloated.

THIS was a fun way to spend a Saturday morning!

The entire time, he stayed hard, he got so turned on by it, which is good, because I needed to milk his semen build up. (All the pre-cum he oozed prior to our session, I made him ingest for reabsorption.)

He jerked off onto a plate, and ended up producing almost two teaspoons. The average load is 1/2 – 1 teaspoon, but I still wasn’t impressed. After all that prep, I was expecting more. So, I told him to tuck it away in the freezer and we would strive for more next time.

I’m curious to see where this new professional relationship goes, and what sort of fantasies we will explore. So far, it’s been wickedly intense and a lot of fun!

No doubt you’ll hear more updates on the strange and curious case of David R.



jon 2013-02-18 10:24:58

I had CBT at work, then my girlfriend started talking about CBT all the time. Of course, one was Computer-Based Training and the other was Compassion-Based Therapy related to her grad school program. I got a wicked smile every time they were mentioned. The girlfriend gives me a lot of elbows to the ribs while discussing work, but I can’t help but go THERE.

I’m not even interested in it, but once some things are learned, they can’t be unlearned.


Kendra Holliday 2013-04-10 12:13:19

Supplements with a reputation for male virility/hardness/semen production:

•Vitamin C
•Alpha Lipoic Acid
•Horny Goat Weed


Parmenides 2013-12-23 10:27:03

Where are you based?


    Kendra Holliday 2013-12-23 12:19:17

    St. Louis


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